Peace and Blessings to you all and Happy New Moon!
If you’re reading this, I am sure you’re thinking that is a peculiar time to be receiving a newsletter. I typically publish my monthly newsletters at the top of the month but here we are, five days in and you’re just now receiving it. To be honest, extreme heaviness, sadness and confusion have overweighed my spirit since Sunday afternoon. I had just left from enjoying a baseball game on a beautiful day and was on my way to see my favorite podcast live, when sadness stuck. I was in the car, driving, I wanted to turn around and go home but something said no, keep going.
It was in those moments of immediate sadness that I realized; I will never be able to control the flow of life. I had been celebrating life the entire weekend, giving thanks and honoring God for the ability to have fun, to be blessed to spend time with my beautiful friends. Even through all the happiness, there came an abrupt, unexpected sadness that I knew would only get heavier overtime. My life had become consumed with sadness over an act I had no control over. It was life happening to me, to us and regardless of where we were life stopped and there was nothing we could do. Helpless we all felt.
I barely slept Sunday night and I worked from home on Monday. I was defeated emotionally. I cried all day. The next day I made the effort to rise and do what I know myself to do, carry on despite the pain. The day after that, I rose again but feeling a little more motivated than the day before. It’s been hard to describe the feelings that we’ve all shared as a collective. Universally, in the last week we’ve experienced some of the greatest shifts in our lifetimes in this realm. We’ve all felt the shifts and changes. For me, it felt like living in an alternate world one minute and being catapulted back into my reality, a reality that felt somber and dreary.
Today felt peaceful internally. I cried a lot today, but I felt peace. I sat in prayer for a really long time today and gave honor to God and my Ancestors. Following prayer, I felt hope, I felt a sense of relief, a sense of togetherness. Today is the first day in five days that I’ve felt balanced. While a lot us still may be experiencing periods of grief and sadness during this time of mourning, you too may also now be feeling at peace. Smiles through the tears is the best way for me to describe it. The last five days have taught us a very important lesson about life. The lesson being, through the cycles of life, chaos and trauma create healing. Many of us have cried for the first time in weeks, months, maybe even years.
Many of us have called people who we haven’t spoken to in days, weeks, months and years to tell them that we love them. The scores of hate have settled amongst groups of people who have long-time been false enemies. The outpouring of love, compassion and understanding has been shown amongst complete strangers. Many of us have accepted forgiveness into our hearts and choosing to move forward, even if it means disconnecting from the person or place entirely. There has been a wave of grief pouring into this realm while simultaneously sharing space with an overwhelming amount of healing. Change is how I define it.
Today I felt ready to stand in my power. While many of us are not here to serve a purpose to be called to the frontlines through activism or entertainment to be a voice for the people, we all have a job, we all have a purpose. A huge part of that purpose is you choosing to stand in your power, you choosing to elevate your consciousness to fully become the sovereign being you were called to this realm to be.
“Self-ownership (also known as sovereignty of the individual or individual sovereignty) is the concept of property in one's own person, expressed as the moral or natural right of a person to have bodily integrity and be the exclusive controller of one's own body and life. Self-ownership is a central idea in several political philosophies that emphasize individualism, such as liberalism and anarchism.”
It is time for you to reclaim your power. This shit served as a divine intervention. Many have been teetering back and forth. Many have had one foot out and one-foot in. And then there are those who were unaware. Most of humanity can identify as being “unaware.” No matter where you lie on this spectrum, this is the time to elevate and awaken to your truth. The truth of what we were lacking was never hidden, the truth of what we needed to see our light during times of darkness was never hidden, we just never sought it out. We’ve failed for generations to be truth seekers.
What do you know to be true about yourself besides what you’ve forced yourself to believe based on societal standards? What lie are you convincing yourself about your life and your circumstances? Earlier I stated, the heaviness of what we felt when the shift occurred. I also expressed that I allowed myself one day to feel defeat and every day following I continued to rise despite the pain. The cycles of life teach us that every moment in life is a learning point. Regardless of how heavy the experience, how painful and unfortunate, it is a time to be taught and to learn. It is also a time to heal and look to all the ways you have allowed life to take your power away.
For the first time in a long time, we as a collective felt an immense amount of pain but the pain that we felt from this loss poured into us. We felt motivated despite the hurt, we felt ready to make life changes and commit to growth. It was like God sent a carrier and when that carrier passed on, he didn’t forget to remind you of your power and what you are capable. That is your lesson. Carry this with you throughout the rest of your life. No matter the circumstance, situation, keep moving, keep going. Stand in your power despite the pain and keep fighting for change. Despite the shifts, fight against the currents and push through.
Stand in your power. Know your worth. Live in your truth. Exercise your right to learn. Utilize your right to serve someone other than yourself. Stay encouraged. Be good to yourself. Be good to others. Show compassion to the world around you and the world within in you. If these last days have taught you nothing, it should have taught you that we all feel the same, we all grieve the same. No matter your race, gender, gang affiliation, occupation or beliefs, we collectively shared an experience that will change this nation for a lifetime. It’s our divine right and responsibility to own our beliefs, ideas, principles, and values. It’s time we reclaim our minds, our lives, our confidence in our inner knowledge and have the courage to stand for truth and justice despite what our institutions, the media, and others may be telling us. Let go of what you used to know, that is gone. No more time to be sleep. It’s time we awake from our laziness, distractions, and dependencies to reclaim our power so we can create a better world! I pray for you all and your strength to continue to step into your power and become who you are called to be. The time is now!
To our beloved brother in wisdom, truth, light, creation, and eternal love, we receive the blessings you’ve bestowed upon us in the physical and now spiritual. As an ancestor, may you rest peacefully knowing that your mission sparked a well needed shift and change in the world. Your life purpose is embedded in our hearts and in this nation. From the truth seeker who forever taught us to seek truth, we honor your legacy for life. Rest Heavenly Ermias Asghedom. The Marathon Continues!