Choosing Myself and Being A Little More Intentional About Life
Yesterday after leaving the hospital for pains and abnormal breathing, I got to thinking so much about life. I thought a lot about the moments, experiences and people that we take for granted because we assume that life owes us everything we encounter. I thought about how easy it is to take good health for granted. How easy it is to allow other people’s actions to stress us out, cause us to worry so much that we drive ourselves into rare, sometimes fatal illnesses. We fall into states of depression, we teach ourselves to hate life all because we stopped choosing ourselves and let the actions of others determine how we navigate through life.
There is something so gratifying about choosing yourself. There’s power in the moment you decide that you are the primary source of your own happiness and you won’t allow anything or anyone to stand in the way of creating perfect peace in your everyday life. When we are born, we come into this world with an innocence so pure, so sweet. As we grow older it is the world around us that teaches us to forgo our innocence to become someone unrecognizable. You can fall victim to this or you can choose to not let life turn you cold. Most of us choose the latter. This is probably the first moment in our lives when we choose not to choose ourselves. The moment where we begin letting reality, life’s circumstances and the people we’ve chosen to surround ourselves with to make decisions for us opposed to following our heart. We basically stop being intentional about the life that we live.
At what moment did you stop following your heart? At what moment did you decide to allow life to determine how you function or how you respond to the world? These are questions that I often asked myself. At some point I realized I stopped being intentional about my life. I stopped being intentional about what I wanted to see, how I wanted my life feel, what I wanted to hear and experience. There was a short period in my life where I allowed circumstances and the actions of others to determine the decisions that I made. I allowed other people’s inaction and inability to see my value turn me into someone who I did not recognize.
Thank God I didn’t allow life to close and harden my heart permanently. Had I done so, I would have missed out on so much beauty. I would have missed out on the joys of being authentically who I am to my core. I would have deprived myself of the opportunity to be intentional about the choices that I made. I would have deprived myself the joy of doing what feels good for my soul. It was intention, choosing self that allowed me to step out of that space. It was me coming to the realization that at the end of the day, I have to live with me. I have to love me, I have to like me and hindering this process due to other people’s actions is only doing me a disservice. How can one be more intentional? Commitment. Just decide to begin. Tell yourself, tell God, tell The Universe, tell whoever or whatever it is that you believe in that you desire to be more intentional.
Start by reminding yourself:
“Intention creates and shapes my reality. I commit to being more intentional. Every day I intend to feel more centered as well as carry a more positive outlook on life. It is my intention to create and experience life from the only reality that truly exists, which is love. Every day when I enter a room, enter a conversation or engage with another living being I will ask myself “Am I showing up with the intention to give and receive love?” As I become more intentional, my life will begin to shift. By being more intentional I control what I accept from others and most importantly, I control what I subject myself to. It is with great intention that I will pursue a more balanced, healthier way of living. My intentional way of being is assisting me in releasing the illusion of being dependent on external forces in this world. The more intentional I am about how I treat and love on myself, the more I become intentional about the things that I pursue, the relationships I form with others and the ever-growing relationship with myself. Because I am intentional, I know that my well-being comes second to none.
I intend to feel love and acceptance from myself and in all my personal relationships daily. I am intentional about all that serves and supports my healing and spiritual growth. My intentional way of living breeds clarity and restoration. I am intentional about reclaiming my power. I am my happiest when I choose to operate from a place of intention. I am intentional about my ability to manifest inner peace. Being intentional is the foundation of me living a more consciously aware life. Everything that I need to live a more intention driven life exists within me. The opportunities that I pursue are all done based on intention. I am intentional about all that create and put out into the world to serve others. I am intentional about the connections I build. I am intentional about how I show up to others. I choose to release any constructs, old beliefs, and paradigms that are presently blocking me from fully utilizing my creativity for the highest good of all involved. I make prosperity, peace and love my highest priority by way of intention. From this day forward, I confidently embrace and implement my new way of intentional living.
And so, it is!